For the Wanderer in all of us

This whole business of being alive is a rollercoaster ride, a kaleidoscope of wonders, a prism of everchanging scenes.

You’ve got to be brave to weather the tides and you’ve got to be a fool to carry on by. Foolishly in love with the experience, the adventure, and exploration, and danger.

Why live small when you were born to be bold and speak your mind, to stand up for your cause, to have a good time. You know, you can be what ever you want to be.

To be… One of the most puzzling things of all. Shakespeare suggested it while Hamlet pondered it, Camus questioned it, Hemingway gave up on it, Heidegger studied it, Thoreau explored it… What are you going to do with it?

How about first simply just being. Being present in this moment, right now, on this tab in this browser. Not on your phone, not halfway through an email while a video of a laughing baby is on pause and you’re having a conversation with a friend next to you.

Zone in, take this breath in with me, breathe it all in…1, 2, 3… Now Release, haaa and let it all go, all the distractions, the fragments of pain, all indecision, all misfortunes we endure, our expectations and any overthinking. Let it be, let your breath lead. Just be.

This is not the final destination. This is the beginning of it all. It takes courage to strive. To be and only so is to have not lived, it is to have stayed inside. To embrace the fact that you are alive is to seek in the world that is already inside.

Have that drink, take that photo, crack that joke, strike up that conversation you’ve been dying to have, wear that flame-red dress, spin in the wind if you like, kiss the flowers and eat the berries. Do what feels right, let your heart be your guide, take your clothes off and swim in the churning deep blue.

Adventure awaits, it’s time to take the plunge. Come on, let’s go!

On the importance of self-compassion

I think it’s important to be open and honest with yourself and with others, to do what makes you happy and to ignore the naysayers.

This is your journey, allow yourself to enjoy the ride. It’s not your responsibility to change anyone else’s mind. If you focus on cultivating and enriching all aspects of your own life and work, you will inadvertently, positively influence others. I’m starting to realise the significance of the sentiment ‘If your compassion does not include yourself it is incomplete’.

If you respect yourself it will inevitably convert to you respecting and understanding others and thus you won’t have to worry about hurting or trespassing others as deep rooted care and respect will guide you wisely.

This may leave you open to being trespassed or hurt by others who do not value this sentiment, but it is so revitalising to know that although heartache and betrayal hurt, I’d rather feel everything than nothing at all. The beauty of life lies in one’s openness to change and uncertainty. To resilience and self-respect.

I’ve begun to realise how important it is to risk leaving your heart open. Even if you’ve already been broken no matter how badly, the deepest wounds heal with time and with personalised care. You are strong enough to pick up the pieces and try again.

After the worst is over and dealt with, you can run wild and free and stay true to what’s right for you. Knowing that trusting too much can be just as debilitating as hiding behind walls. You’ll have a greater sense of knowing when others aren’t as sincere or genuine as you’d like to believe. You’ll have a deeper understanding of yourself, of what you like and just as importantly what you do not want or need in your life.

Everyone’s journey is unique and special in their own way, it’s up to each of us to find the magic in our own story and find peace and harmony in the path we’re treading, or to find the inner strength to change direction if we find ourselves unhappy.

Start with yourself

Love is not selfish,

and has no conditions,

there is no rule book,

no rules or regulations,

Love should set you free,

not coil you into a cobra basket

of codes and currencies,

Love weathers distance and time

and forgives heedless mistakes

from decisions made on a whim.

Love trusts and understands that we’re all always learning.

Love is hopeful, and sees beauty beneath the dark shadows,

love is patient.

Love is to be shared,

True love has a way of being at peace.

Finding Home

“So much of our time is spent running from ourselves, or hiding from the world.
There is a feeling that you should go home,
and spend a lifetime finding out just where that is.”
– Pico Iyer

Thank you,
and goodbye.

I will now use this sadness as a lesson,

This curse as a blessing,

My trusting heart to be open,

and this solitude for compassion,

As I now hold all those golden memories as little treasures.

The beautiful souls live on within,

For if I never see their faces again

I can always return to my dreams,

to relive the moments where life stood still

And everything seemed at one.

Where I once felt that I’d found home.

Let it Happen, Let it Be

Life is an amazing, wild, mismatched journey,

Everyone makes mistakes,

it’s not about that, no.

It’s about how long you wallow in your shortcomings and your suffering

and how swiftly you pick yourself up and try again,

To know that you can do it better this time,

with the wisdom you gained tripping over that roadblock.

You simply cannot give in,

even when it feels like the whole world is against you,

take a moment just to breathe,

look up and see all the love that surrounds you,

and your own capacity for growth and peace.

Feel the life return to you, and watch the light seep in,

Allow the fear and the anxieties in,

let them breath through your body

and tingle your skin,

Learn them, understand them,

then leave them in that passing moment.

This is where peace and restoration happens,

This is where it all begins…

Your soul is calling, your spirit is yearning for more,

Your mind is seeking salvation, so that your heart can go and explore,

Let it happen, let it be.

Life and Living

There is so much out there yet to be seen

So many undiscovered creatures,

So much untouched land

Gilded cages may keep you safe and warm,

but they only coop you in

The armchair you’re viewing life from may be softer than a cloud,

more elegant than a train ride

But with time it’ll fade and wear,

it’ll lose its bounce and cushioning

and you’ll soon be stranded and sitting on the cold floor

It’s only then that you’ll realise the beauty of taking risks

Of doing it on your own

and taking your life on the high road

Chances offer changes

and create space so that bigger things can replace the empty spaces

So that then we can create space for the things we love

and take time

So that we can ditch the list of could have dones…

 

Go forth

To hold it all together is the hardest part of all,

’cause no matter the pain you’re in,

life is moving on, calling for you to join in.

Sometimes I like to unlock my chest

just to let my heart wander the depths of these pages.

All I need is a pen and some paper,

just to keep the dark thoughts from seeping out into the open,

The tough times are passing,

and soon this will be just another life lesson,

I’m still broke, but I’m working,

My heart hurts, but it’s healing,

My world’s shaken in all different directions,

So now, once again, I hold all the ropes to my future

and the sun is shining,

the clouds are breaking,

as the sky is awaiting to be filled with dreams and passion

To fall through the sky

you know, it scared me,

to see you so calm in front of those familiar faces,

to switch when the door clicked,

and those innocent eyes fell away,

and that warm smile dissipated from your face.

You scared me.

The way your eyes pierced me when I was cowering in the corner,

Just wishing for an escape shoot to separate beneath me and set me free,

but there was never an easy way to leave,

And you thrived on knowing that you could always block the only exit,

that you were bigger and louder than me,

that I’d stay and you’d shout,

and I’d feel more and more lost,

And you’d tell me that my fear and sadness was the cause of all the stress.

You devoured every passionate kiss like it was the first you’d ever tasted,

and you sunk your teeth into my flesh to suck out the light that was left.

Now sometimes I start to wonder if you ever cared at all,

or if I was just another of your possessions that you could never force and fit on your shelf.

A prize that you tried to bury for no one’s eyes but your own,

so as you saw me slipping away,

your grip grew tighter and your eyes grew wider,

and it only fell apart faster as the light began to breathe through the cracks.

To shine once more, this time through your stronghold,

as I slipped through the opening crevices,

and out of your grasp.

Path of destruction

“Three things cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth.” – Buddha

My heart is breaking with each lie you place on the stake

to burn and burn until the ashes are indistinguishable

I guess your mask is stronger than your steel-caged heart,

But someday it’ll all catch up to you,

You’re trying to make me out to be a monster just because you can’t contain the monster inside yourself

‘Cause really, you don’t even know what you’re talking about,

you’re simply misconstruing facts just to save your name,

so you took a liar’s words and used them as your own,

just because he’s your own, and you couldn’t bear the truth

And you left me stranded, you put me out in the cold,

you’d rather rub good names in the dirt than lift your mask off and help

you broke my heart then snatched up the pieces and just threw them out to sea,

but there’s no salvation or peace in the games you like to play,

just because you’re older doesn’t make you wiser than I,

The truth hurts, but it also has the power to heal the wounds of the harshest storms…

Blessing in disguise

All the faces, all the names

Buried memories and dug up bones

The future leads us and carries us on

As each day belies a treasure awaiting to be found

Sometimes it’s a dark place out there in the woods

Sometimes it’s a clear sky up there above those woods

In all that happens the universe still burns, in all that goes unsaid, the world still turns

So many mysteries and so much to learn,

Each day is a blessing
Each day is all yours,

Choose to live by your own will, don’t surrender your fate to the hands of others

Keep away from the dark roads, steer clear of the storms

Sometimes the hardest choice is the only one you get

Once it’s done. It’s over. The next choice is only yours to make.

Veer away from the carnage and seek the sun through the clouds

So much to live for, so much to learn, so much enlightenment yet to reach

It’s a new day, it’s the next step along the pavement of life.